Back in the day; I was co-chair of a Neo-Pagan association. It was a lot of fun, met some great people and as with all organizations, some not-so-great folk. That’s life.
Time tends to colour memory and I only have good memories of those times. I will keep it that way.
Am I thinking of restarting a Pagan association? A.B.S.O.L.U.T.E.L.Y NOT! As much fun as we had, it was tiring, mentally draining and freaking expensive. My “spirituality” has changed. Time and age will do that.
I do know that I think…again, time/memory thing, I was more centered. Maybe it is because I had something to concentrate on, a focus, something I, currently, lack. I don’t have hobbies, per se. I have things I enjoy, like video games but no actual hobbies.
Am I still a Pagan? I suppose. I don’t believe in deities, more of an archetypal influence on human behaviour and goals. Do I still believe in the various practices? Sure do. I believe in a universal unconscious and our ability to tap into it. Based on knowledge of past behaviours, influences? Probably but regardless, while I have stored those practices away for about 10 -15 years, they do still hold an “allure” for me.
Rituals were something to which I always looked forward; by and large they were very centering events. Oh we had a few that were way off base; usually due to “visitors” or people that carried a very dark side, invading our space. For the most part though; they were good events. Solidifying events.
With all that is going on, in this world, in my life; I think I may start to strike up those rituals again, on a personal level however. Perhaps this is the focus I need in my life. I’m very scattered. And I don’t like that feeling at all.
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